What Are My "Letters To You"?

Fun fact: when I was like 13 I started to journal a lot, especially about and to people. I moved a lot growing up, so I didn't make friendships I saw for years when I was younger. I also lost of people in life, school, family through different kinds of deaths.

This led me to write everything. I have since lost my favorite, my prized journal from the flood that hit my apartment last year. It was a sadness that still hurts sometimes. In that journal were letters to people that I don't have pictures with, there were responses from people who are no longer on this earth. There are letters smudged with so many tears it's almost illegible.

Now you make ask why that kind of journal is so important to someone who has healed and moved on from the moments solidified in that book. I started writing way before I started social media. In fact my first journal entry in that book was 2009, right after I got diagnosed with T1D. It wasn't crazy, it wouldn't have prepared me for now, but it showed where I was, what I felt like and the ideas I had in my brain. It took me through middle school, depression, eating disorders, suicide, loss of family members, so much bullying. It also held the wonderful moments of hanging out with my cousins running around our front street when we were supposed to be asleep, or the first time I snuck out (sorry mom, not really, I love you though!). It has held so many memories I never backed up onto iCloud, or thought I'd need to download to protect.

With that being said, I started writing these many years ago, and so I think it's time to bring them to the blog, so y'all can see more of the crazy thoughts running through my mind. Many of the letters I already have written are people no longer in my life. I probably won't ever leave a name, initial or any other real identifying factor just because it's unneccesary. What I will include will be titles of who they were or by the words, you'll be able to deduce who they were to me.

There are many letters I cannot post just because of private information and/or protection of others and myself. But I have so many words to say the world, words to say to these people, and words I think maybe some of you could relate to. So, I've decided to bring this section to the blog, just to get this off my chest, and truthfully to be more vulnerable to the world, it's one of the things I have been working on, and writing has always been an outlet to me.

Welcome to "Letters To You" I hope you enjoy.

As always

Love,

Tori